AS I GREW OLDER

As I Grew Older

It was a long time ago.
I have almost forgotten my dream
But it was there then,
In front of me,
Bright like a sun--My dream.
And then the wall rose,
Rose slowly,Slowly,
Between me and my dream.
Rose until it touched the sky--The wall
Shadow.I am black.I lie down in the shadow.
No longer the light of my dream before me,
Above me.
Only the thick wall.
Only the shadow.
My hands!My dark hands!
Break through the wall!
Find my dream!
Help me to shatter this darkness,
To smash this night,
To break this shadow
Into a thousand lights of sun,
Into a thousand whirling dreams
Of sun!


by:
Langston Hughes

the road not taken

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way

I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

first time i read this poem was during my secondary school.
we need to learn as it part of our new sylibus for english.
after my spm and that time i was at matriculation centre of iium
i realize that i am in the same plot as in that poem
i need to choose between two roads

and reading this poem again reminds me of that time..
nothing to be regret as i chose one
one of the yellow road.......

me in different views

after seing me in different time, which one is the most cutest?

my only grand dad

this is the only grand dad that i have. he is my grandfather of my mother's side youngest brother. my grandfather had only three siblings.he was died 10 years ago and his second brother died about a month ago. now, this is the only grand dad that i had.

he live at kuala terengganu. few days ago he came to dungun. his reason is to visit his nieces and nephews that live here as he just come back from mekah.

when he came here, he stand up in the middle of our family land few metres from my house and staring all over the place. he seems like thinking of something. he went to surau or some called as musolla that build by my late grandfather and do solat jemaah for five times prayer.

i can see the sorrow from his eye.

he is the only one left

maybe he is thinking of his calling

AL FAATIHAH for my late grandfathers,grandmothers, family and all tha muslims

crisis of me

lately, i got another problem of friendship.
it all about my two close friends.
she and he.

she is a friend i get to know since 2001, my secondary school.
we go together to university and used to be room mate.
even different course, we are very close.
the problem started after aidilfitri.
i dont know what happened.
it just she refuse to answer my call or my sms.
and few days before christmas, she called me.
even i'm still angry of what she had done me, i just answer her called.
she act like nothing happened. no apology just admit that i had tear her heart without telling what i had done.
she invited me to her engagement ceremony but i cant as i didnt have my own vehicle.

she also invited me to go to her house if i went to kl. but when i arrived there, i keep calling her but she hasnt answer my call until today.
what was my wrongdoing?
she is doing what she had done before.

i just thinking that it is only her had the heart and i'm not.
i am a humanbeing as well!!

to the she, u r tearing my heart as well
am i the one that always need to seek apology from you?
am i not a humanbeing?
why u r keep doing this to me?
why should you end our friendship like this?
is that our friendship had no value to you?

i carry you with my heart

yesterday i watch a movie on tv2 titled " in her shoes". the main actress is cameron diaz.
it was an intresting movie. some people might see it in other view but for me it very touching and of course has good moral value.
a person who stray from their path should be given chance, not just quit from that person.

my favourite part in this movie was the part when maggie read a poem for her sister during the sister's wedding.actually maggie is dyselexia (i dont know how to spell). she practice enough as to read that poem.
the poem by e. e. cummings. and i wann share that poem....

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it inmy heart)

i am never without it

(anywherei go you go,my dear; and whatever is doneby only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)

i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

duhai palestin

saat kite menyambut tahun baru
saudara kite palestin dihujani dengan bedilan2
israel durjana
kite hanya kuasa kecil
tidak banyak dapat membantu
hanya sumbangan wang ringgit dan doa tulus
andai anda muslim, menyumbanglah buat mereka

SONG FOR GAZA

i got this lyric from this site. http://michaelheart.com/Song_for_Gaza.html.

i just wanna share what i read

WE WILL NOT GO DOWN

(Song for Gaza)

(Composed by Michael Heart) Copyright 2009

A blinding flash of white light

Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight

People running for cover

Not knowing whether they’re dead or alive

They came with their tanks and their planes

With ravaging fiery flames

And nothing remains

Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze

We will not go down

In the night, without a fight

You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools

But our spirit will never die

We will not go down

In Gaza tonight

Women and children alike

Murdered and massacred night after night

While the so-called leaders of countries afar

Debated on who’s wrong or right

But their powerless words were in vain

And the bombs fell down like acid rain

But through the tears and the blood and the pain

You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze

We will not go down In the night, without a fight

You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools

But our spirit will never die

We will not go down

In Gaza tonight

All Music and Content Copyrighted. All rights reserved. © 2008

happy belated new year

it almost 2 weeks after new year.
happy new year to myself.
as we talking about new year, there
will be new mission and vision.
as for me, my main mission is to seek for
a suitable job for me.perhaps a permanent one as i', unemployed
at this moment.being a housegirl is not me.
therefore i need a job.
i've been sick of this situation.
another thing that i wish to deal this year is
to find someone that i can keep as my husband to be, not just a guy
who want to play around.
just wish me the best.